The Living vs the Mechanical
I grew up believing art is sacred. A spiritual vocation. North America was the land of dreams, and I arrived certain that art would be celebrated here for the divine gift it is.
Or so I had hoped.
Music kept me alive the first and darkest years of that transition. I couldn’t afford a piano or concerts after immigrating, but I could afford to talk about what I loved. For free, everywhere on the internet. And so I did.
By 2007, I was senior editor on AbsolutePunk — one of the biggest online music communities before Reddit’s rise and platforms like it. A place where only real art mattered. Unfiltered, raw, true. Anything serving the machine was labeled “sold out,” and we meant it.
This is where my relationship to art, and to criticism, changed forever.
I made a promise to never, under any circumstance, criticize someone else’s art. My energy was better spent amplifying what I loved.
I came under fire for this constantly, in an era when reviewing albums was all the rage. But I couldn’t bring myself to do it. It didn’t feel like “just an album.” It’s a living thing, made tangible through the heart. The body is only the vessel.
So instead of reviews, I persuaded record labels to let me stream albums in full — in advance — and let the audience decide for themselves. Blasphemy! But I'd watched what Napster cracked open in 1999, what BitTorrent proved about direct distribution, and I knew what happened when people connected to music with nothing between them.
It was an uphill battle. Until the numbers came in.
Charts moved.
Pre-orders skyrocketed.
Tours sold out.
Streaming became the law of the land.
That experiment proved the audience doesn’t need a mediator between them and art. The connection is direct, intimate, personal. How it’s always meant to be.
But proving it in practice and understanding it psychologically were two different things.
Years inside the human psyche eventually gave me the language for what I’d always felt in my bones — to make sense of someone's self-expression, you need to understand timing, complexes, inner weather. A fluency in symbolism is necessary too, because the psyche speaks symbolically above all else. Hence art.
By “art” I mean the genuine expression of Self — not the assembly-line product that turns us into animals on a farm, existing instead of living.
That distinction became my compass: the living versus the mechanical.
How could anyone believe they have the authority to judge self-expression? There is a significant difference between celebrating what you love because it moves you, and playing judge. To judge implies a lack of love. Of care for what is human and real. It’s an ego game, and a psychologically damaging one, because it poisons vulnerability at every level — artist, audience, world.
The machine is not some abstract thing out there. It lives through us — in the hunger for dopamine, in endless consumption, in habits that cement a superficial existence. We operate in a reality where art is a product to be consumed, categorized, and rated. Careers are built on reducing another’s creative voice to a score.
Everything collapses into numbers and technique instead of feeling and connection.
Artificial. Lifeless.
Simply consuming or making "art" without understanding the processes at play, only to spit it back out ad nauseam, poisons the soil we all draw from.
A system built on this is neurotic.
That’s why it’s dying. As it was always going to.
We can do better than a self-inflicted neurosis.
Our relationship to art is a mirror for how we treat what actually matters. Our own hearts. We attempt to think our way through feelings. But matters of the heart are meant to be felt.
Creativity is a psychological and spiritual necessity, not a performative act.
Feeling unlocks healing.
It is not what you understand about life or yourself that creates a neurosis — it is your inability to. Creative expression fills that gap. It forces you into the depths of your own feeling. To name it. To feel it fully. This — sinking into waters you've avoided — is where integration happens. Where healing begins.
Healing is an expansion of consciousness. You move from unconscious suffering to conscious understanding. From fragmentation to wholeness. This is individuation: becoming more of who you truly are.
That’s art. That’s the medicine.
When an artist undergoes that journey and brings something back through creative expression, it becomes medicine for everyone. By following their own North Star, they give others permission to find theirs. The work doesn’t just entertain — it fertilizes the soil for the art in you to come alive.
It takes courage to create in a world that fears the inner voice. And it takes something close to sacred strength to share publicly the intimate conversation an artist has with their authentic Self.
In an algorithmic world, the most precious thing you carry is your humanness.
“Artist” is not a title. It means living in your full authenticity and expressing it in your own voice — bringing new energy, new life onto this plane and changing it.
Magic.
This is what I learned from the promise I made all those years ago.
Choosing celebration over judgment is not just a stance. It’s a way of life.
Stop consuming. Start understanding.
Stop analyzing. Start feeling.
You were created to create.


“Simply consuming or making “art” without understanding the processes at play, only to spit it back out ad nauseam, poisons the soil we all draw from.”
Thank you Lueda for sharing this 🙏🏽
I adored reading this.